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Wednesday, April 27, 2011

psychological abuse

i really don't understand why some people like to call others names...

scold them like their are worthless...

make the victims feel that they are the most useless people on the planet...

assume others are wrong even though they are clearly in fault...

the only thing would probably appease these people will be.... death





do these people even have hearts?

Every time i see psychological abuse, i tell myself. Never ever be those type of people.








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Akistar the Murdererあきのほし left a death note at 12:49 AM
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Friday, June 18, 2010

Of car accidents and the media

My good friend, Joy's family was involved in a car accident. 5 left the world, 3 survived.

That's the 3rd person whom I knew got killed in a car accident.

First was my late-uncle whom I never get the chance to meet him.

Then it was the late-Keegan. His mum commited suicide on his birthday shortly after his death.

And now Joy's family.



Very devastating news.



Worse part is the media. They disgust me. Sometimes, I just wonder whether the people holding the pens have conscience and ethics.

First, they published uncensored bodies laid neatly by the road at the scene of accident.

Then, they somehow manage to access Joy's facebook and made a media report out of it. I am very very certain that Joy blocked people who are not related to her from seeing her facebook profile. To the person who abused this privilege: shame on you. If you know Joy well enough, she is a low-profile person and that would be against her wishes.

They even copied a family picture from her facebook account, published on the newspaper. Caption reads happy family now broken.

And then, they took a picture of my friend's traumatised sister in the hospital ward. AND they dare to publish her picture.

Seriously, what is happening to the media nowadays?

Can't they just leave the mourning family alone?


Joy, your friends and relatives are always here for you.

This is for you, Joy and auntie. May the Wee family rest in peace in heaven.



Those we love don't go away,
They walk beside us everyday,

Unseen, unheard, but very near,

Still loved, still missed and very dear.

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Akistar the Murdererあきのほし left a death note at 5:00 PM
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Friday, May 28, 2010

心碎


我又失败了
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....
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碎过的心

还可以再补救吗?


真的好累...

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Akistar the Murdererあきのほし left a death note at 10:25 PM
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Wednesday, April 21, 2010

相见

回到马来西亚和新加坡,与老友相见。

眼前的朋友们各忙各自的事业,连会合的时间都十分紧迫。真的好怀念以前读书的日子。无忧无虑,要玩就玩,没事+天气好就一起去玩 frisbee.

踏进社会大学后,才发觉:人,好复杂。上班就好像上战场,各有各的目的,要堤防小人。特别是在外国工作,觉得他们的人真的好假。

有时候,自己还想当初选择了考到执照后,留在英国是否是对的选择。到现在还没找到下一份工,家里吵吵闹闹,奶奶要做慈喜太后,父母被他们气到团团转。但是没有工作经验回归祖国,又觉得好浪费,回来一定被欺负。

人善被人欺!

既然已经做出这个决定,我就要勇敢的走下去。一切就随缘吧!

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Akistar the Murdererあきのほし left a death note at 6:18 PM
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

stupid people

Checked my mailbox and as usual, I'll just delete those forwarded mails without opening it. Today, something caught my eye and I made an exception. Here's why:

PS: this was sent by a final year university student, who is my friend as well.

Subject: Aids can spread in this way too...



Hati-hati kepada sesiapa yang suka makan buah2an yang dah siap di ptong...
JANGAN BELI BUAH-BUAHAN YANG TELAH SIAP DI POTONG

Good to know.

A 10 year old boy, had eaten pineapple about 15 days back, and fell sick, from the day he had eaten. Later when he had his health check done...

doctors diagnosed that he had AIDS. His parents couldn't believe it...

Then the entire family under went a check-up... none of them suffered from Aids.

So the doctors checked again with the boy if he had eaten out...The boy said "yes". He had pineapple that evening. Immediately a group from Malaya Hospital went to the pineapple vendor to check. They found the pineapple seller had a cut on his finger while cutting the pineapple, his blood had spread into the fruit. When they had his blood checked...the guy was suffering from AIDS...... but he himself was NOT aware. Unfortunately the boy is suffering from it now. Please take care while you eat on the road side.

Please forward this mail to your dear one.


er.. shouldn't "on the road side" be BY the road side? AND Malaya Hospital DOES NOT EXIST! I'm not that pathetic, have more than 1 "dear one". Probably dear ten. haha

OMG this is ridiculous. Now all the street vendors who sell fruits have to change their careers. Oh wait, what about our mamak stalls? aren't they dangerous?


I mean unless you have a cut in your mouth, you can't really get it. Besides, the virus cannot survive outside the body. It needs to be in body fluids to be harmful enough. See here and here for good explanations about this myth.

The funniest part was that this mail was originally forwarded by an admin staff from a local Malaysian university.

I was flabbergasted. University education, in my opinion is supposed to help people think better and make more sensible choices. Looks like I'm wrong.

The moral of the story is... don't simply forward junk email without filtering it first. Unless you are prepared to embarass yourself.

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Akistar the Murdererあきのほし left a death note at 4:02 AM
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Monday, December 15, 2008

Where am I now?

I am now in Dublin.

Land of Guinness



And the ever famous Spire. I called it the huge 'jarum' (needle in Malay).


Supposed to bathe now, but there's no hot water at the moment. Since I have some time to spare... time to update my blog!

With reference to my previous posts, I received loads of concerns from everyone. To everyone who took their time to actually read my 'ahma' length stories, thank you very much! Kam Sia! Didn't know that I was so loved... hahaha

1 of my dear reader asked (actually more than 1) whether I will be afraid if the actual parties involved came across my blog.

The answer is... No, I'm not scared. In fact, if they see it, it might be good for them as well. They will know never ever to mess with me again, and most importantly (and hopefully) change their working attitude.

Right, back to my Dublin travels. This is my 2nd trip to Dublin. I actually walked around pretty much of Dublin in my last trip. This trip was mainly to meet people whom I've not met for a very long long time. So it's more of a relaxing, makan and chit chat trip. Caught up with some old friends, managed to update my antenna (and also update theirs) for the BBC Gossip Channel.

That bit is boring so I will omit that. I just watched a movie called "Changeling". I think it's quite a slow show. I was checking my watch after the first 40 mins of the show.

Tell me... why so sian???

I thought it was an thriller, so it should be SCARY and have loads of action.

The 'scariest' part of the show will be the part where they chop up the bodies. And it wasn't like really really scary. I would rate it "Happy Tree Friends version" minus the cuteness.


In short, go stream it online, don't waste your money to watch it in a cinema.

End of story. I think there should be hot water now. Till then, baa woof!

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Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Update on groupmates from hell

Latest update!

So emergency task assigned. 3 out of 5 responses. You might have guessed it...


Yes it's the normal 3 musketeers!

N had something on, no internet access so she did apologize for not being able to complete that task. Well at least she did come to me and tell me she can't do it. Even asked what time I plan to sleep so that she can call me if there's anything she doesn't understand.

K ler... I'm very very sure that she read my instructions. No response. Great. Love her man.

Oh and I reopened the original mail sent by K with the presentation slides coz I was too lazy to retype everyone's addresses. Here's the original message:
Dear all,
This is the edited version (Your head lar edited) of our presentation. Feel free to change anything.
Of course coz you couldn't be bothered to change anything

We're meeting up tmr to practice, right?
K

HAHA CAUGHT RED HANDED! See she knew that there was a meeting! She probably forgot about it and tried to cover up.


Let's see what happens tomorrow!

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Akistar the Murdererあきのほし left a death note at 10:31 PM
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Monday, December 01, 2008

My groupmates from hell Pt 2

Today, supposed to have meeting BUT...

N and K did not turn up for lecture in the morning.

Fair enough. I was thinking as long as they turn up for meeting later that's fine.

11am. Class ended. No news.

No one can contact N because no one has her number. V phoned K.

K was sleeping. Great. Apparently both are unaware of this meeting. I think what irriitated me was K did not even suggest to postpone the meeting. But the show must go on! Me and H are not going to tolerate all these nonsense just because someone was irresponsible.

We went ahead with the meeting.

Oh and remember the slides K was supposed to send?

Yes she did sent it during the weekend. To be exact 3 minutes before the weekend ended.
11:57PM 30 Nov 2008

What lovely groupmates I have. I love them so much that I wish I can throw both of them down the longkang.
No not this drain. That's too kind of me.





YES! monsoon drain!

That idiot K, did not even at least check for grammar or add some pictures to our boring slides. I found so many grammar mistakes when I looked at the first slide. Looks like someone was very very busy compiling slides over the weekend.

We finalised the slides, without 2 of them. Very very very fed up with these nonsense. Met both of them in the afternoon lecture.

I have thought of this very carefully. I know that I will jeapordize my friendships, but I just think that this is unfair. If I don't do it now, I won't be able to do that in the future. Especially when I start my real working life, when everything the boss says is gold and you just have to bow down and obey.


I exploded and told them off.

Seriously, these 2 needed someone to tell them off. Don't think that we can be bullied, eh? Do you both think that you can get away with this by just saying "sorry"? What about my time, H's and V's time? Is that fair for all of us?

Very pissed off. Anyway we met up AGAIN and re-explained the WHOLE thing. argh! Thank goodness our class ended early, if not there wouldn't be time to even discuss and explain to both of them.

FYI, our timetable for today was something like this:
9-11am: Workshop
2-4pm: Lecture 1
4-5pm: Lecture 2

If you are intelligent enough, common sense will tell you that whatever discussion should take place between 11am-2pm. No one in class will want to stay back after 5pm if they have the option to complete it earlier.

Right. Aftermath.

Due to unavoidable circumstances, I have to contact our group members without going through uni mail. Behold, the ever fantastic Facebook!
I think facebook was the best social network utility until it got flooded with irritating applications. My friends are recommending me to get some other thing where you can earn karma points. No, you can't go to heaven with that. Can't remember what is it though.

So I just send a normal blah blah blah notice, saying can you please blah blah blah and blah blah blah.

Few hours later, I got this reply from K:

I juz wanna say i'm not purposely not turn up for the meeting. It's the point that we didn't set a time to meet up. you can't expect everyone to turn up in random time. I've already said sorry to everyone about that.

K

And I responded with this. I haven't been writing such a professional letter for years to be honest. haha

hi K,

Thanks for your help and message. I understand that both you and N do intend to attend this meeting. It is true that we did not set the exact time, but I do remember hearing that we will do it during the break between lectures.

If you are not sure, you should have clarified on the spot. We do not expect you to turn up randomly either, all of us have personal matters to attend to.

Bear in mind if XYZ's lecture did not ended early today, we could not even have had this meeting at 3pm.

Again, much great apologies as obviously there is a communication breakdown between all of us. Thanks to all for sacrificing your precious time, contributing ideas and not doing PMR (our coursework) during the meeting.

SY

40 mins later, I got a new message in my mailbox!

i didn't hear anything about meeting during the break and not all of us know about this as well. The point is no one in our group is sure about the time of the meeting.
Anywayz, i don't want to argue about this anymore.

Finally juz want to make sure next meeting is SOME TIME, SOME DATE, SOME PLACE coz i don't want to miss it anymore.

K

What a sincere apology.

That's the best part of working with different people

You get to see their true colours =)

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Akistar the Murdererあきのほし left a death note at 11:45 PM
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My Groupmates from Hell Pt 1

We have this presentation on STI services which requires group work.

I've worked in numerous groups before, so far only had 1 bad experience. Well, after this, that makes it 2.

You see, I have the honour to work with 1 fellow classmate whom I've known for 4 years, 1 Thai girl and 2 Hong Kees. 1 of the Hong Kees actually had a reputation for not turning up for meetings, being irresponsible and etc. The other one, I just had a bad feeling about her.


Gosh this sounds like xxxHolic's Watanuki Kimihiro. haha

Anyway, I love working with new people. New ideas, new styles of dealing with situations, and who knows you might get a new friend. Seriously, you can learn hell loads from your partners. Well, that is if you get excellent members. For my case, you guessed it. Here's why.

Let's just label these few people as:
H- My 4-year buddy
V- Thai girl
N- Hong Kee 1
K- Bad feeling Hong Kee 2

The First Meeting
V was missing, but informed that she will come as soon as she's available. This meeting was initiated by K. I don't understand why we can't change the time where everyone will be convenient. After all, it's the first meeting where you get things sorted. Just as I was wondering how do we sort things out, I realized that the supposed leader, K (since she initiated this meeting) have very limited vocabulary.

"So how.... HOW?? HOW??? HOW??? I don't know..."

Gosh, that was the start of my nightmare. Ideas given not solid... Not only that, how are you supposed to vomit things out if none of us are prepared?


The meeting ended by dividing references to read. I forsee a stormy, rough sea ahead.


The Second Meeting
It was the day we have to hand in another assignment too. First 30 mins, N went missing. We couldn't be bothered to wait for her. Who knows whether she turns up. The "discussion" turned out to be me and H contributing ideas. I seriously don't know what the other 2 found from their references. K printed out this single sheet of stuff, and said: "Oh I found this and I think it might be useful". But throughout the discussion, only me and H were the ones who made the broth. K never utter a single word from her reference and so-called "useful" information. Ideas given, again without research cannot be used.

V was a bit quiet, but at least the ideas she gave was constructive. I can see that she tried very hard, unlike K who only knows to talk a lot.

30 mins later, N turned up. We have to yell at her across the room because apparently we were invisible. *Poof* we are visible again! Hooray!

So continue discussion. N's ideas. I wouldn't say they are bad, but we need implementable ideas. Hers will work in an ideal world where money is like free, flowing water. Not in this world though.
Anyway, N was like a ghost.


She appeared, and disappeared. Again and again. And whenever she budges in, it's always the ideas which we've already discussed about. I wouldn't say she made a significant contribution.

It didn't took us long to find out the reason for her ghostly presence.

She was doing the assignment meant to pass up today.

Time of note: 1600
Due time: 1700

Gosh. To make things worse, K wasn't helping either. She was obsessed with changing the powerpoint slides background.

*click click*

Not like she's creating a background also. I can imagine what type of background she can create with Photoshop.

The very complicated powerpoint background

I think she is a very smart girl. Smart as in good in taking advantage of people. She pretended to be very busy, but H and me can tell that she did pretty much nothing.

Oh actually she did something. By being a spoilt tape recorder.

"So how.... HOW?? HOW??? HOW??? I don't know..."

Geez I hate these type of people. She should be slapped before thrown into the longkang. She was supposed to cover H's topic as well, but nothing much came out from her mouth. I can see that she is making cows with clouds. H was quite pissed, kept quiet after seeing how unequal our contributions became.

We sort of divided the task in the meeting again. 2 teams: Me and H, V and K. I can tell that V did much of the work. K was just moaning as usual.

N? Missing.

We finished discussing + doing the slides within 3 hours. I think we are the few groups who managed to finish at such speed. Not bad.

As for N, she disappeared for 30 mins after 17:00. Why? To hand in her report. Another problematic one. She left us without telling, goodness knows what took her so long to hand in a report which was only 5 mins away.

She came back, and by the time she abandoned her "ghost" form, we were almost done with the slides. She just kept interrupting at wrong times and expect other people to comply with her needs. I got quite fed up with her interruptions so I just asked her to not disturb me while I finish my final bit for the presentation. Harsh, but I hate people disturbing my thoughts.

Ok so everyone was tired and we finally finished. V prefer to finish her part at home, so K was supposed to compile V's part before sending to all of us. She said she will send it over the weekend. Great. Task done. Well at least the basic part. We agreed to meet the following Monday during our break between lectures.

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` About the Author ;

    gemini murderer
    Loves naan garlic cheese
    loves to sleep

    Currently imposing unecessary stress to herself by becoming a healthcare student



    Doesn't hold grudges often, but when she does, they last a long time.

    Don't say I didn't warn you



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About the chinese words above

    This is for the benefit of my non-mandarin speaking friends.

    The chinese characters found on the top of the layout basically means (according to verse):

    Secretly I left,
    Just as secretly as I came;
    With a flicker of my sleeve (I departed)*,
    Without bringing away a wisp of crimson cloud.

    *added to make more sense


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My Yam Cha Kaki;

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